"More than all else that is to be safeguard, safeguard your heart; for out of it are the sources of life."
-Proverbs 4:23
Here I go, bearing my soul yet again. Answer me this, why is it so hard to let go? To emotionally detach yourself from, both a person and/or event? Especially, when It caused you pain. I can't seem to shake it.
My mind is entangled in you, my hearts' enamored by you, my thoughts consumed with you. No matter how hard I fight, you're proving victorious. To be honest it's frustrating! A little over a year later, I still find myself attracted to you. Despite the fact that you hurt me. What is it? Could it be that, on paper you are everything I could ever want in a counterpart? Spiritual, a leader, understanding, an intellectual, compassionate, the list goes on. Or could it be because the decision YOU chose to make effected not just you, but US? I don't know what it is. I came across a quote once that read "If you can't clearly explain it, than you don't clearly understand it." and that's how I'm feeling now. I can't seem to put into words what it is I'm dealing with. More understanding is surely needed. What's a lady to do, but to pray.
Until Next Time - Britt.
